Been in a Hard Situation is a Privilege Too
At least for me
I am not coming from well-off family. My mom had to raise her 3 children all by herself, financially & emotionally. My mom didn't have a stable income, that what make us struggle financially. I still remember back then when we just moved to a new town, we didn't even afford to buy home, we rented and shared with our relatives.
On top of financial instability, I had to struggle emotionally as well. Being a kid from divorced family wasn’t easy. People put label on you and yeah that made me felt insecure. Back then when I was in elementary school, I lied to my parent’s friend whenever they asked about my father. I made up a scenario, pretended that my dad was out of town for worked. Deep down, I was longing for a dad figure. I had one actually but it was only for short period of time and that was not my biological one.
When life was getting tough, I was getting tougher. As a kid, what I had in mind was only one, I had to change my life and make it all worth it for my mom and for my self. I got my first fuel when my step dad who’ve been married to my mom for 5 years decided to leave us with debt. I saluted my mom for being strong enough to survive and I promised to 10 years old me that someday my life will change.
I started to study hard. I didn’t know exactly why but I believe when you are smart, people will respect and appreciate you disregard of your background. When you are smart, you are easily to get the job and get a stable paycheck that my family never earned. Only one thing in my head, my life have to be changed or at least I am making progress.
With all shit happened in life, I started to see it as a privilege. Yea, some people maybe born with silver spoon in their mouth and call it privilege. In my case, having uneasy life when I grew up is a privilege. I might be different person if it was all easy. I might not be as tough as I am now if everything was perfect. Again, life can be awful or beautiful depends on how you see it. For me, I decide to see it in a beautiful way. There must be a reason why my biological father was being irresponsible when I needed him the most. One of the reason probably life just want make me stronger.
I believe there will be many people out there who experienced uneasy life. For you who read it, I salute you. Celebrate every progress in life. You must be proud of yourself.
