We Own Our Own Development

No one does, except ourself

When I was a kid, I used to believe that being a good student was for the sake of make my mom happy. I studied hard only for that. As a kid, it wasn’t easy to really learn even the motivation was clear enough. Sometimes I asked myself “why we have to learn?” I never really got an answer at that time. What I had in mind only one thing, “I have to make my mom happy or she will mad at me”. Yes, I was growing up with a dogma that having a good mark is important. But still, I don’t know why…

When I was in senior high school, I kept learning so hard, I guess it because of habit that has been built since in elementary school. My motivation is changed anyway, I kept learning and had a good mark because by doing that I can keep hanging out with my friend. My mom’s rule only one, “Give me a good report and you can do whatever you want”. Yea, I kept learning but my motivation wasn’t really right.

When I was a Uni student, I kept learning and improving my skills with only one reason, “I have to change my life and being independent”. It might sound clique, but the tough life taught me so. To set the context for you, I went to university with a scholarship. I had to learn to manage all the things in order to keep my life going. I gain more skills other than what I got from class to increase my value and of course to make money in order to survive. I helped my lecture research, being a tutor for my senior and even being an independent statistic consultant for my friend for making more money. My motivation that time is between a survival mode to make more money and change my future life.

I look back and connecting the path that I have been through. The key take out of what I have done is one thing, “ I have to own my own development “. As lifetime goes by, there's no such thing as grade and whatever the test to make us develop our skill. But we still have to develop ourselves, in order to not only survive but thrive the life itself. No one literally no one will push you to do that. We have to push ourselves because, at the end of the day, this is our life. Only us who will live with it.